Hogar, Dulce Hogar

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I’m not spiritual at all yet I’ve grown this desire to be. About ten years ago I became atheist and lost all sort of spirituality and have since made it clear that in order to be spiritual one had to be religious. Since this “awakening” I’ve required facts, scientific facts, for me to have any sort of belief in anything. I see science as the champion of truth. After all that was how I came to have my disillusion with “god” as there was no real evidence for his existence and have since spent years deprecating myself for being afraid of this omnipresent being that was anything but. But as I dwell deep into the topic of what I am or what we are I keep bumping into the recurring notion that “we are not human beings having a spiritual experience but spiritual beings having a human experience.” So why do I worry so much about life if it’s just a temporary experience in the grander scale of things? Maybe it’s because the skeptic in me is still questioning the “pseudo spiritual” aspect of who I am or what I am. Am I really just this conscious being of energy temporarily stuck in this body? I don’t know but I’m almost 30 years old and I still feel like I haven’t found myself, my true self, and what it is that I’m suppose to do with this life I was given. I have so many questions that I yearn to find an answer to and I believe those answers are waiting for me in a jungle in Peru. I believe ayahuasca will help me answer these questions. Researching ayahuasca ceremonies has taught me that what we make of life lies within our consciousness. What we believe will be. Since we are, essentially, energy we can attract positiveness into our lives and in turn live a more fulfilled life. It all lies within ourselves. Hm, could it be that simple? 

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